"People shouldn’t think too much what the consequence will be but instead they should think of the happiness that they’ll get."
Oh aking iniirog, galak ang laging hatid.
Ang araw ay lumipas, mundo’y sayo umikot.
Ako ay nagagalak, sa himig mong kay lamig.
Ngayong ika’y kasama, nag-iba na ang ihip.
Nawalang parang bula, puso ko ay winasak.
Pag-iibigang tapat, ito’y sana ibalik.
(INFO) EXO’s music video for “Overdose” will be released on the 16th.
(INFO) EXO’s Highlight Medley for “중독/上瘾” (Overdose) to be released this afternoon on the 14th. The album will have 5 tracks.
his day sucks. Why it sucks? Because I said so. Nah. Well, to tell the truth, I feel all alone. Forever alone. As if that I don’t exists. Let’s that sometimes I also what to be alone, but this is too much. Just like I mention from my previous entry, its my vacation now, so I don’t expect to have those vacation extravaganzas. I just watch Korean dramas all they by myself. Or raid our refrigerator to look for food. But even though I do those stuff, I still can’t in my mind that it looks like that they don’t care. I don’t know am I going to let go this heavy feeling that’s inside me. I just need someone to talk to or something that can ease this feeling. Maybe I can use this entry for today, so at least it will lessen the heavy feels.
So, I’ll start it during my birthday last week. During that day, I didn’t receive any gifts from the people I expect to give me something. What I learn from this? Don’t expect to much because it may cause so much pain. On that day also, there’s no cake or any other food. It looks like its really just a normal day. No occasion or celebration. I always keep in mind that day that just understand but the f*ck I just can’t help myself to envy my other relatives that they celebrate their birthday happy. It’s been my sixteenth birthday which they sometimes called “sweet sixteen” but for me it’s “bitter sixteen” or “sour sixteen”. I can’t help to be angry at them but looks like they don’t mind it. I want to cry that day but I can’t.
I want to lessen or better to remove this heavy feeling but I can’t. I don’t know how. I don’t have someone to talk to. But luckily, thanks to the movies and dramas that I’m watching (which has a sad scene) it help me to bring those hard feeling thru crying. (Watching those can make some great alibis.) And what’s a great partner when watching some shows? Food! I watch will eating food, specially ice cream. Food of the depress. When I’m already done watching, Twitter is always there to listen. My super best friend. (Me, a forever alone)
All I can say is that not all of the people that you know or around you will understand you but it’s you who needs to understand them.